Had Good Thanksgiving
Author: JustMe
I had a good thanksgiving. I ended up going to a friends house and spent it with her family. It was her family and then her parents-in-law, her mother, her brother and her cousin and uncle. My family is spread throughout four states, so I really don’t get to see them much. It’s nice to have friends who “take you in” 
I made the stuffing, although her husband made some too. Of course she had enough food for an army. She had almost one pie or cake per person.
I got down there on Thanksgiving, and after we ate we played Monopoly which I had brought down. At around midnight her husband, me and her son watched Star Trek. Of course I didn’t end up falling asleep until like 4:00am. I had plans on Friday with another friend, so I couldn’t stay till Saturday. I did stay a bit longer talking to her mother and husband about what a nutcase SAH’s mother is and the episode with the wedding. I wanted to tell them what happened with SAH – but I think I have determined that, although I can talk about it to some people, I feel pretty embarrassed by what happened between him and I. I mean really – how could I have let him treat me like this for so long? Anyway, I didn’t get out of there until about noon time
When I got onto the highway I decided to call KQ who I was meeting up with later in the day to go to the store, have dinner with and then watch some movies. I called and she said she was just texting me – actually as the phone was ringing I got her text. I told her I have ESP – which sometimes it’s rather uncanny how many times this actually happens. Anyway – we decided we’ll meet up at 2:30 and then go up to the store and I was going to make homemade pizza.
Since we weren’t going to eat until around 8:00 we decided to get something to eat. She was going to chip in for the stuff to make pizza, but when I said not to worry about, she offered to pay for the late lunch we were going to have. I said that would be cool. I have to learn to be okay with people offering to split things and pay for things. I’m so used to paying, and I always seem to expect to pay, that it is actually difficult for me to have people even split the cost with me. Believe it or not – I feel guilty. I feel that if I don’t pay, I am letting the person down or something.
We got back to my place, took the groceries in, I made the dough and while it was busy rising, we watched Charlie Wilson’s War which she hadn’t seen. After the movie was over, I started the pizza. On the pizza was done, we watched Star Trek: Wrath of Khan in HD.
It was a fun time. We do quite a bit together. I just want friendship though. I have too many problems in my past for anything else. I’m always afraid that when I start to get close to someone of the opposite sex like this, that they may expect more. I don’t want to give anymore than friendship though. I just want people to hang out with and do things with. I want companionship.
Well on Saturday I got a surprising call from my cousin FY, SAH’s uncle. He works at a grocery store and wanted to know if I wanted his free turkey. He couldn’t use it and was offering it to me. I said sure, I’d take it. So I went by about 9:00pm to meet up with him at the store. We ended up picking up a 21lb turkey and he wanted to upgrade it to a premium turkey for me. I told him he didn’t have to but he said that he wanted to do that for all the stuff I’ve done for him. Although he doesn’t say it – I think he feels that I’ve gotten treated pretty crappy from SAH, his mother and everyone else in that family. FY kept saying how nice I am and how generous I am to people.
Well after basically going food shopping with FY and just basically hanging out with him – where he kept apologizing for holding me up, which I told him him I was in no hurry – I walked him out to his car. His only day off is Monday’s, so I asked him if he wanted to come over and I would cook the turkey and we can both enjoy it. Right now he isn’t feeling very well, so the plan is that next Monday he is going to come over.
I’ll make the turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, broccoli and gravy. I hope he does end up coming over. He has an on again, off again relationship with this controlling woman. You never know what will end up happening. At the last minute she decided she wasn’t going to SAH’s wedding, she has left him an hour from his home with no way to get back (I had to pick him up at the bus station and drive him to work where his car was).
Although things have been good during the day for the most part, my dreams haven’t been. I know I’ve been having a lot of dreams about SAH. I don’t always remember them though. I just awaken with this empty since of loss feeling. I’ll have more about that in another post maybe.
