Anonymous Life

Will SAH’s Marriage Last?

Tuesday, August 11th, 2009

Ok, so no one can really tell if someone’s marriage will last or not, not even the couple getting married, but I do believe there are certain signs of whether a marriage will be good or bad.

I will layout why I am having a hard time accepting SAH’s marriage and why I don’t think it will last here and it starts with how he first met TL.  Damn, this can be a long post. (more…)

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Feeling Used – or is it BEING Used?

Tuesday, June 24th, 2008

The part that is so hard to deal with for me is the feeling of being completely used by someone I cared so much about. There are people, acquaintances, who come into ones life who are “expendable”. There are others who come into ones life who really end up meaning a lot and are very important. SAH was one of those latter people to me. This is why it is so hard for me to come to terms with how he has treated me. (more…)

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Marriage Based on Dependency

Monday, June 23rd, 2008

I was reading the article – “Dependency and Sabotage” on the “Everyone Needs Therapy Blog”. Basically it discusses marriage where someone has been dependent on their parents and then ultimately becomes dependent on their spouse and the problems that result from this in the marriage. (more…)

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The Two Coreys

Monday, June 23rd, 2008

I’m sitting here watching the second season of The Two Coreys. I sort of grew up with Corey Haim and Corey Feldman. It’s sort of weird – it’s like watching SAH and I and what we are going through. I’m not really sure if I’m Feldman or Haim though. It’s like I’m a bit of both of them. (more…)

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S.A.H and Becoming a Cop

Monday, June 16th, 2008

Okay – I will state right out that the way I feel and have felt I do not want S.A.H. to become a cop. I have to be honest, part of it is the fact that I’m pissed and that I want his world crashing down around him. I know – if I want his world to be miserable, then why do I still want him in my life. If I seem to hate him so much, then why do I still claim to care about him. It’s all contradictory and i don’t expect people to understand. I care about him though and he was/is a brother to me, but I am pissed at the things he has done and how he has treated me. Sometimes I want him to feel as miserable as I feel sometimes. (more…)

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A Gay Athlete’s Life

Saturday, June 14th, 2008

I’ve been reading back and forth the three blogs that I mentioned in my last post. I know that the person who has Gay Athlete’s Life must check his stats and see where people are linking from. He mentions doing this in his blog. I don’t know if he’ll come and read this and what he will think about all the crap I have said up to this point. I don’t know what it matters, it’s not like anyone knows me. I do know he doesn’t live too far from me – maybe an hour or hour and half. (more…)

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Been a while

Saturday, June 14th, 2008

Yeah I know – boring fucking titles. I just really don’t know what to title these things. I don’t post very often and then so much happens – i can’t really title them as anything. (more…)

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Moving forward and Improving my life

Saturday, May 17th, 2008

Feeling: Anxious

Well a lot has happened since I last wrote. Man has a lot happened. I’m not going to think about all the bad things right now. I’m going to explore what I need to do to make my life better. (more…)

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Cutting ties with someone you care about…

Monday, December 10th, 2007

Damn this is so hard. Let’s see – why do I want S.A.H. in my life…

1. He’s fun to be around
2. We’ve had great times and memories together
3. We’ve been through a lot together
4. I love him like a brother
5. I will miss him if he was out of my life

Why should he be out of my life…

1. He stole from me
2. He’s lied to me
3. He blocked me from MySpace
4. He changed his phone number and won’t give it to me. (although he says no one has it because it’s not his phone).
5. He’s repeatedly blown me off when we’ve had plans.

I don’t really see what to do. I don’t want to be out of his life – and I know some of the things I brought on myself. But I can’t defend his lying and stealing from me. I know he doesn’t defend me to people and the latest thing that really upsets me is him saying that I’m not right in the head. (more…)

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